I have a love-hate relationship with blogging. Right now, I hate it. Lately, I don’t want to read blogs or write them. In a word, blogging has been a chore. The whole process makes me frustrated. Maybe it’s “writer’s block.” Maybe it’s the winter blues. Maybe it’s something else. I don’t know.
Whatever the case, I feel like in the “theo blogosphere” there’s always pressure to write something insightful, challenging, and inspirational weekly, or even daily. Like I have to stay on par with the other Christian blogs. It’s the 21st century Christian way of keeping up with the Joneses. I get sucked into it. People comment on the blog. My stats are up. I get linked on other sites. I’m on the “Top 100” blogs list for the day. My head gets a little puffed up and it’s hard to keep it up long enough to write a short post.
I don’t want to be like that. And I’m sorry when I am. I want to write because I love it, because it refreshes me, and because it’s a blessing from God. I write much more in journals, notebooks, and in the corners of my mind that only God will see than what goes on this blog. Those don’t have big stats or comments from readers. They aren’t visible or accessible to anyone. It’s just raw, honest, straightforward words.
I want this place to be like that too.